Where does the time go?

Wow! Where does the time go? It seems like we get so caught up in life, it is just hard to find time to do the things we enjoy. I do enjoy blogging and one of my resolutions for this year is that I am going to try to put myself first for once. I want to take time out for me, but as you see it is almost the end of the month and I am just now logging on to my blog and getting something down. I guess I could look at it as the end of January is better than the beginning of February!! LOL Whew, it is only the end of January and I feel like a whole 6 months has already passed since the new year. I have had a horrible start for 2009. My tires have been slashed and as if that wasn't enough; my front window has been busted out with a full bottle of beer of all things (so not only did I have glass everywhere I had frozen beer all over the place. Lovely I know!!

I get so tired of having to be the giving parent

When you are stuck co-parenting with a selfish opposite there is really no time for me to ever worry about my own feelings because my son's dad puts so much pressure on him to be with him and continues to tell him that he doesn't know what he would do without him. My son carries so much guilt around with him because of his dad is constantly pressuring him about everything. If he really cared about his son he should ask himself why he would want my son around his (anti-ever get my life together girlfriend) So if he loves his son you would have thought he would have said a couple of years ago like....look son I need to get some things together and I want you to stay with your mom for awhile. BUT NO he has subjected my son to everything that has went on in that house and I am so pissed and him for that. I never wanted my kids to have to grow up before their time and learn about things that they should never have to worry about at his age. I know it has to be hard on my son to go back and forth from one week to the next. I think I am going to encourage my son to choose one place or the other to live because he will be 12 years old soon and I much as I want him to pick to live at my house I am not going to tell him that and I am embracing myself for the worst because that is all his dad ever tells him. His dad also makes him feel inferior to all of the other kids that he has living in that house that are not even his kids. So regardless of my feelings or what I think is best for my son I cannot watch him go back and forth and be so unhappy. I have tried to take this case back to court but as my ex always puts it he will make sure I don't have a pot to piss in after that. I cannot afford to pay for an attorney and I don't qualify for legal aid which I still don't understand that, when I don't have a job.

Welfare Abuser's ~ Continued

My son told me that Jenny the girlfriend of his dad had to be taken to the hospital because she was having some type of complications with the baby that she is pregnant with. Jenny was in the hospital for 2 or 3 weeks. I had no idea what type of problem she could have been having that they would keep her for 3 weeks. Well then the truth comes out and she has apparently been in the O.S.U. drug rehabilitation center. She had to go to detox to try to get the heroin and meth out of her system that she has been using while being pregnant. I am utterly disgusted, you want to ruin your life fine but why in the hell does she think she has a right to ruin that baby's life while it is inside of her. Don't they press charges against people for that. I always thought they did but if they don't have any laws against mothers who are pregnant and take drugs. Well that to me would seem like child endangerment???? DUH I have no respect for this lady and she lives with my son, this is the type of role model my son's dad has chosen for him. Why would he do that if he loves our son. You would think he would have kicked her drug using ass to the curb along time ago. There you have it folks another piece of shit gets to bring another precious child in this would when the child is probably already addicted. People like this Jenny girl should not even be able to have children. There are so many peopl out there who are looking to have babies and let them come into this world with a fighting chance.